the upside Lyrics

trying not what i'm used to
this time, i'll abstain my telephone
so my fingers won't obey, anyway

finding courses to act for another night
anything for the broken brain
take to the streets in another way
i go to best friend's girl's house
and this lady, haley's all under a hat
if we can talk for a while
she can break me down
and find

we're all just kids out looking for our own piece of mind
with every damn mouth telling us we'll never be fine
and so i'll scream
and sometimes all you got is your mom on your side
when you go back to the chains
from where you used to reside
i awake (in my sleep)
i'm awake (i still dream)
and it's always me
on my god damn knees

haley's so drunk, no way she'll remember
the twenty-second of '04 november
but maybe i will have these problems too
and drink like a fish that's over fed at the zoo
and if it seems to be the case whereas
i stay inside on rainy nights (in)stead seeing you

do not fall
it's not your fault
so with this shootout, let's draw

and it's always me
on my god damn knees
where's the upside please?
she's me disease

but oh no, here it comes around again
and i can only wonder what i do
to cause such complications and issues
(oh no, oh no)
okay i said it, what to do
i should be hung dead for the youth
i'm careless and frightened, and kind of exicted
so why you gonna kill me girl

well i know, i keep up this damn town
by singing for the night
and i felt i'd fall into bad ways
so i'll keep out of sight
ears are bleeding from headphones beating
no, i'll never go unhook myself from
my computer screen
no, this console's got me cooking
like an addict, we crave these things

so haley's not coming back, not for nothing
and even if i could make up for something
she'd still be right to hate me