Red Eyes pt 2 Lyrics

I woke up and knew
Today was somehow different
The way the rays of light came through my window
When I looked around my room
I couldn't help but be confused
There were cards and there were flowers
There were trays of untouched food
And I pieced it all together
It was the seventh of September
July I could remember, but August wasn't there

When I looked into a mirror
My eyes were red as hell
Like an emaciated child
I could see each of my bones
I knew that I'd been sick
Cause the cards said to get better
I didn't want to fail them
I had already failed myself
So I finally took a shower
The first I'd had in months
I combed my hair and went downstairs
Into my family's loving arms

They said we were so worried
That we had lost you
Our only son
Have you finally come back?
I said I'm sorry but I can't yet answer that
I hate to ask this
After all you've done
And after all I've put you through
But would you help me get my life back together too?

I had to call my friends
To thank them for the help they'd been
I knew that they'd been trying
I had to let them know
That I remembered
Their encouragement and offers
Their vulgar sense of humor
To try and make me laugh
So I called my best friend
He said he'd started to think
He'd never hear my voice again
And then he wouldn't let me speak

He said "I was so worried
That I had lost you"
My greatest friend
Have you finally come back?
I said I'm sorry but I can't yet answer that
I hate to ask this
After all you've done
And after all I've put you through
But would you help me get my life back together too?

If I am being honest
I'm scared to death
That I'll end up dead or worse
But I've got my family
And I've got my friends
They say they'll help keep me from falling in
We'll put the white back in my eyes
And help me my get my life back together again