Pretending Lyrics

I want to fear the seconds
The beating of a heart
Pretending to look nowhere
Preparing for the start

I just found one solution
One solution that remains
I will cut out all my demons
And carve away my pain

I don't know how you found out
The puzzle that I laid
I've counted every breath now
And noticed moves you made

I always want you near me
Since I saw you at the bar
My hands are getting closer
Until you hear the final jar

And this
Is the happiest day of my life
I'm so happy now
And this
Is the funniest place in the world
I'm so happy now so joyful, uplifted

I don't know how you found out
Who you really are
But it was already too late
When you got hit by a car

You never came to see me
And I don't understand
Is this the final verdict
Just for someone's blood on my hands

I could never get enough of this drug
I could never get enough, enough
Of this poison you bring me