Not Enough Lyrics

I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
I'm not enough

Between my heart and my head
There lies a great divide
In which my future's dead
But now my past won't die

My higher power said, "Love is where you left it"
Back in the home where I should've left my wrists slit
I'm always left behind, bipolar state of mind
I bloom into the high 'til all these memories collide
Dead to rights I've got the ache in spades
I showed you all of my colors in every single fucking shade, yeah

And I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
No I'm not enough

I was a sensational fiend
Living a breakable dream
I was talking to God and testing my faith
I stoke the flame to try and find some grace

My higher power said, "Love is where you left it"
Back in the home where I should've left my wrists slit
I'm always left behind, bipolar state of mind
I bloom into the high 'til all these memories collide

And I have chased this flame
And been burned a thousand times
(Left with smoke in my lungs)
And I can't change my ways
No matter how I try
No, I'm not enough

So forget me when I'm gone
'Cause all that ever mattered were these fucking songs
I dance the thin line between chaos and kindness
What scum I was, hateful and mindless