My Effigy Lyrics

I'm sick, sick of holding on
I'm sick of who I have become

There was a time I drifted
Numb to every word you'd say
Trapped beneath the weight of thoughts
I could not chase away
Hours stretched to lifetimes
Stuck inside my head
Crossed beneath the doubt
That I've never shed

These echoes of a battle
Scars I've never shown
I can't see the end
Lost in the unknown
Fighting endless combat
I'm losing to myself
How long can I hold on
In this forsaken hell

I'm sick, sick of holding on
I'm sick of who I have become

Time has passed, but demons stayed
They never lost their grip
The past still follows close behind
With claws that slowly rip
Though I healed on top
The cuts still burn within
Still walking on the edge of where the dark begins

These echoes of a battle
Scars I've never shown
I can't see the end
Lost in the unknown
Fighting endless combat
I’m losing to myself
How long can I hold on
In this forsaken hell

You're my reflection
You've watched me burn
I've walked through fire
But now it's your turn

Every breath feels like a fight
Clawing through the dark
But I'm not alright

I'm punching the wall just to feel a thing
Addicted to violence, your puppet on strings
Suffocating myself, till my heartbeat returns
Still trapped in your fire, where sanity burns

These echoes of a battle
Scars I've never shown
I can’t see the end
Lost in the unknown
Fighting endless combat
I'm losing to myself
How long can I hold on
In this forsaken hell