Laughing (While You're Smiling) Lyrics

I’m trying to learn the difference between love and codependence
And why it makes my insides ache
And I can’t tell if you’re something I need or the feeling that I should shake

I need to start being honest with myself
And how I feel

Maybe if I tell myself that I’m doing fine
You would stick around and wouldn’t mind me feeling so low

I’m trying to stop focusing on the bad parts of my head
Because I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of it

I need to start taking care of myself
And how I feel

Maybe if I tell myself that I’m doing fine
You would stick around and wouldn’t mind me feeling so low
It gets so fucking old and I’m getting too old

I’m bitter now, but one day I won’t be
I’ll be sitting at a party, laughing while you’re smiling it’s all…
And i’m angry now but one day I won’t be
I’ll be holding your hand, swearing I’m happy

I’m happy, I’m happy, I’m happy, I’m home