Joan, I'm Disappearing Lyrics

It turned to shit
On April 18th
At home on the stairs
With an old cup of tea and your head
Held heavy in your hands

All the trouble with your sleeping
From a hole I could hear your breathing
Restless under blinding lights

A fool, I fenced our love into a rock
And I have no defense
For how we go a-bed
I should have begged for you to stay

Joan I've loved you since I
Was seventeen
And I am lost without you
At first I didn't feel it
But now I'm disappearing

I'll sit here for days
In my every different hate
Given the year
It's unlikely I'll ever change

But you were right
I fenced our love into a rock
And I have no defense
For how we go a-bed

I should have begged for you to stay

Joan I've loved you since I
Was seventeen
And I am lost without you
At first I didn't feel it
But now I'm disappearing

I'm disappearing
I'm disappearing
I'm disappearing