Habits Lyrics

Tonight I wish I could say everything I really want to say without faking it over and over again.
There are always too many metaphors and not enough honesty.
Not enough of the truth to keep this going any longer.

If it were a choice I could make, I would say that it's over, that I'm done.
But habits are never over until something is broken and bleeding under the carpet or rotting slowly in the back of your closet.

May these hands compose you a melody that will cease these fears and end these nightmares.
Make me so much better. I want to be so much better.
This is what I want.
This is what I need.

All of the downtown apartments look alike when taken the time to go inside,
but I'll stay outside because, for once, it isn't raining and it's actually nice.
I'll kiss the cool pavement just in time to realign my conscious desires.
To be happy with who I am, what I look like and what I choose to do with my life.
Turn off the T.V., stop being so fucking naive and work my way out of this hell that I've built for myself.

Maybe I'll become the person I need to be and see the people I need to see,
but for now I'll drive around town and see my friends.
I'll thank them for being a part of my life.
The closest thing I'll ever need to a second family.