Growing Sideways Lyrics

So I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
On some sad-eyed middle aged man's overpriced new leather couch
And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
I said "I'm cured"

And I divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts
Keep the bad shit in my liver, and the rest around my heart
I'm still angry with my parents, for what their parents did to them
But it's a start

But I ignore things, and I move sideways
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways to stay alive

'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh if the engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive

So I fell into a manic*
Spent my paycheck at a Lulu

'Cause everyone's growing
And everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
Oh if the engine works perfect on empty
I guess I'll drive
I guess I'll drive