Complicated Lyrics

I can decide if I want to be
lying in the deepest part of the sea
I can decide if I want to die
thinking of the wrong that could have been right
even if my fears tear me apart
my good intentions help me to carry on
even though I'm making it through my mistakes
I don't want to bring pain to nobody else

I see the surface from the bottom of the sea
abiding to break through just trying to breathe
the waves of dissolution are there drowning me
I'd rather find myself there if I'm not gonna win
it's too complicated

I speak with the bitterness of my heart
I've lost the will to fight for what is right
your hands may be, yeah, what I am
and now I feel like you've forgotten who I am
how can I revive what I once knew
the whole buried deep inside my soul
I know it's in your heart to give my peace
I ask for your compassion found only in you