Coming Clean Lyrics

Haven't had a solid week in years
Last june I swore to myself
That i'd be long gone and out of here
But I didn't make the grade
So I put a ruler to my wrist
Sister made it hurt like hell
Left me a scar the size of texas

The truth is
I've lost touch with who I am
So touching her and them reminds me
I could get away with murder in this city

Sometimes I wonder what keeps me here
Cause i've never been rewarded
Sometimes I wonder what keeps us alive
Maybe its this jersey heart that was made and taught never to die
You're parents disowned me at hospital doors
And all of your friends....
Well someday ill get the best of them

Well I haven't been rewarded for being hated and walked all over
So I sin for thirty and pray for twenty
It's not trouble if you don't get caught
And it's the only way that keeps me forgiving
Somehow this is me coming clean
Please don't hate me because I'm real and you're not
I'm just over living dirty