Backwards Lyrics

Backwards, forwards, i'm exploring the borders,
of everything i want, everything i need.
lethal doses of my own emotions,
seep into my dreams and paralyze me.

[bridge:]
i pick myself up off the ground,
i keep telling myself,
no, i'm not backing down,
i keep telling myself,
the best is still yet to come,
i keep telling myself,
it's darkest before the dawn.

[chorus]
i'm going backwards,
and yet i'm made to believe,
i'm moving forwards,
and i'm chasing my dreams,
but i'll be,
just who i wanna be,
without you controlling,
controlling me.

toxic thoughts can make me easily drop this,
but i won't shift my step, so there's nothing to regret.
i'm broken and coping with this broken hope, and
i kept blaming them, when the doubt came from within.

[bridge:]
no more ugly white lies,
that i keep telling myself,
this time, i'm gonna try,
i'm not just telling myself,
the best is still yet to come,
i keep telling myself,
it's darkest before the dawn.

[chorus]
i'm going backwards,
and yet i'm made to believe,
i'm moving forwards,
and i'm chasing my dreams,
but i'll be,
just who i wanna be,
without you controlling,
controlling me.

i will be seen and be heard,
and they will hang on my every word.
i will break free from the chains,
and beat anything you throw in my way.

i will be seen and be heard,
and they will hang on my every word.
i will break free from the chains,
and beat anything you throw in my way.

(Thanks to MillyAquarius for these lyrics)