Weathered Lyrics

I felt unable; I was lying on my side in the same clothes from the very last night. I want to pray that I am doing everything right. I saw my mom die for the very first time. She was an angel - God took her from the sky, and there's a million other people that I found who cared more than I ever will. I held that note out, I grabbed my bag and I left through the door. I let my hair grow and put these words on my skin, I cannot relate. Would you believe in my songs if I gave them all to you? I can't find the strength in my voice to call you back and say that everything is bad without you and I am lost again, God believe I'm lost again. I stayed in bed and you took so much that I couldn't even sleep. I waited so long, though that wasn't even that bad. I never had to be a part of the world and I've been making that a goal for reasons that I cannot explain. Well, I'm an optimist but only in a perfect world. I think I'm too stained with all the negativity from all the people in my way. I took a trip down south; I felt the sun on my face, and it made things ok for a second. I drew a picture of my problems when I was going insane, and I focused on the currents. It's the funny thing about it, I never seem to worry that every single current's not the same. It's all about position and where I choose to lay; and god I am going away.