Absolution Lyrics

can you afford to bear your crosses?
can you bear to allow your voices?
feel your love in my tangled mess of me,
i know you you only love the best of me,
it's the part of me people rarely see,
i know you're running from reality,
trying to save me, but it's so worthless,
don't drag down, you don't want this,
sweetened sorrow gives way to great pain,
if your love fades only my hate remains,
Alyson, i know you don't love me, only a dream,
but the world'd love you, too, if they'd seen what i've seen,

and another day i go on to face reality,
need someone to sweeten suffering for me,
another day take my place in the world,
and i'd give my all for someone's love for me,

can you afford to bear your pressure?
can you afford to go another session?
i know you never had any love for me,
i realised that so long ago now, it seems,
that all the time i was just in your schemes,
to save yourself from absolution,
f**k you, f**k your pain, i don't give a f**k,
how do i know? maybe it's what you want,
you are nothing but another attention seeker,
from all your pain my soul is none the weaker,
Mother, if it was any more it would be crushed,
i always knew how it felt not to be loved,
don't tell me you weren't loved,
because everyone loved you,
it's ME they ignored! ME! ME! ME!
what's so wrong with me!

and another day i go on to face reality,
need someone to sweeten suffering for me,
another day take my place in the world,
and i'd give my all for someone's love for me,

so can you really afford to never
feel you'll feel this way forever?
pervert, f**kin' wife-beater f**kin' b*stard,
f**k you, now i know how your lies lasted,
don't you dare f**kin' use me, my love is mine,
i hope you regret what you did, i hope you cry,
i hope you hurt inside for the things you did,
you're sorry? sorry? YOU THINK I GIVE A SH*T?
in what f**kin' way do you think that excuses you?
could you even forgive someone who uses you?
f**k you, dad, i've got nothing but pain for you now,
f**k you, dad, i've got nothing but hate for you now,
don't you blame it on your life,
you can't run from me now, i'll MAKE you listen,
you sick f**k! there's no way i'd hurt Alyson!
sick perverted woman-beating motherf**king f**k!
F**K your apologies, F**K your opinions, and F**K YOU!
sit down, shut the f**k up, stay f**kin' dead,
i don't want you inside of my head!
YOU'RE the reason i'm this way!
it's YOUR fault! it's ALL your fault!

and another day i go on to face reality,
need someone to sweeten suffering for me,
another day take my place in the world,
and i'd give my all for someone's love for me,
and another day i go on to face reality,
need someone to sweeten suffering for me,
another day take my place in the world,
and i'd give my all for someone's love for me,
and another day i go on to face reality,
need someone to sweeten suffering for me,
another day take my place in the world,
and i'd give my all for someone's love for me,
i'd give my all just for one chance with you, Alyson!