Desperation (In Memoriam) Lyrics

In desperation he dies alone
his heart aint beating, I hold my own
nothing that I've done
could change this outcome
so pack your bag son, you're going home

and in the papers that people read
they hear the story but they won't see
his great depression
and all the lessons
he inadvertently taught to me

i swear to god that I'm not insane
but all the faces, they look the same
i'm freaking out now
and I don't know how
the feelings change but the words remain

i sit and wait but you'll never show
you never paid off the debt you owed
the pain that broke us, I'm losing focus
i realize i am so alone

some days all you ever see is pain
enough to make you go insane
some days it's all you see
cut skin to the bone with your blade
and don't you ever be afraid
why can't I be the same?

sweet november, it slides away
and leaves me longing for better days
but winter trapped me
this cant be happening
happiness was so far away

the nights are endless the days go by
i couldn't save you, but god I tried
a different lifestyle, I left for a while
so death could take you alone to die

some days all you ever see is pain
enough to make you go insane
some days it's all you see
cut skin to the bone with your blade
and don't you ever be afraid
why can't I be the same?

and I can not look past
anything at all
the police lights flash
as the curtain falls