Deserve You Lyrics

I don't know if I deserve to have you back
I don't know if it's even fair to try
But this burning is turning internal
I'm burning inside, I'm on fire
If I told you how much this all hurts me
If I told you just how sorry I am
If I painted you paintings, all blues and grays
Would it change a thing? Maybe I'll sing

All these fallen leaves surrounding me
But the breeze don't feel right
Falling fast asleep, yeah I can dream
But my dreams don't feel right
I turn on the light

I'm done with the lies
I'm done with the trying to hide things, and
I'm done with the drinking, and thinking
It's normal to numb myself, for myself
That's not me

I don't know if I deserve to have you back
I at least have to try
So I pulled the wool over your eyes
And the wool in your eyes made you cry
But that taught me, that's not me, to be that way
And that's why I've changed
Let me show you I've changed

And I've been working day and night on improvements
Renovating all my ways to brand new
And if you don't decide today, don't worry
I'll stay 'til you do, 'til you do

All these fallen leaves surrounding me
But the breeze don't feel right
I'm falling fast asleep, yeah I can dream
But my dreams don't feel right
I turn on the light

And I hope that I deserve to have you back
I at least have to try, have to try, yeah

'Cause I'm done with the lies
I'm done with the trying to hide things, and
I'm done with the drinking, and thinking
It's normal to numb myself, for myself
That's not me, so I'll do this for me
And I'll do this to be a better man
So you can see me more clearly

I don't know if I deserve to have you back
I at least have to try