All I Ever Wanted Lyrics

I only say these things to you when you're sleeping
I hear the hum from the wires and the sounds of the morning creep in
So I lie awake and I hope that you don't hear me

I can tell that you're scared of turning into your mother
And I can feel myself turn into my father
So we can lie to ourselves like they do and say we're still happy
I guess it's easy when you're young and you know still want it so badly

I turn over again and I feel my heart beating faster
And I stare out the window and I think that I might scream

I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I still utter every word as I hold you near
But I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever

And then we find ourselves alone at the station
And you smile like a child and you told me you want to be taken
I never thought you'd be the kind of girl that would say that
And you suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my breast
I'd be lying if I said that I didn't find it exciting
Your eyes all wet and your face so warm and inviting

I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I utter every word as I hold you near
But I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever

I'd tell you that I'd always love you like some pristine doll that you hold at night
But I'd be lying
Love is defying

And all I could think is that there must be some kind of rebellion
We're on these fears like soldiers and we slay them.

So I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
I still feel you breathing while you're sleeping here
And I shudder when you wake and ask me if I thought I'd be here forever, forever, forever

Your face so twisted and your eyes a lie
I want to tell you I don't see you when you cry at night
But I'd be lying
Love is defying
We're slowly dying